Today my sophomores were in the computer lab. One of the babies was working diligently, and he called me over to ask me a question. Naturally, because I am always available to answer any and all questions (hardly..."too many questions!!!" is often my cry at the end of the week, and/or day), I hauled tail over to his computer. Much to my horror, the image on his screen was not a lovely Firefox window filled with EBSCOhost research database information. Unfortunately, it was a picture of me. Fear not, dear mother, it was an appropriate picture (my ID pic the district has on its website). In my sometimes-overdramatic fashion, I began to flip out. I demanded that the picture be changed NOW. When he began to ask me a question about the assignment, I said, "No! Change that picture. Right this second. Don't push it, ___________. You're one step away from it." (Don't ask me what "it" is...just the first thing that popped into my mind. I have many instances such as that - surprised the babies haven't called me on it. Yet.) So he changed the picture and I walked away.
As I walked away from his computer (and the giggling babies surrounding him), I began to think about my reaction. Perhaps it was a little much. But oh dangit, I did not want to apologize. That sweet student has driven me up about a thousand creeks over the course of my short teaching career (for those who have heard the story, it's the "booty shorts" boy), and I was just done with him today.
It made me think about how very human I am but how inhuman I occasionally expect my students (or anyone else for that matter) to be. I tend to get so worked up over little things (anyone who has interacted with me for at least 5 minutes can attest to this) instead of letting them slide off my back. So my mantra for the next week is going to be: Relax. Take a deep breath. It's not that big of a deal.
As for the sweet student...as much as he makes me want to run to Antarctica and never look back or crawl into a bear-cave and pray to be eaten or eat 5 pounds of cookie dough and spend the rest of the day in the bathroom, a small (very very very small) part of me looks forward to every day with him because I know that it's rare to walk away without a good story. And that's what life is, right? A beautiful collections of short stories.
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